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barbie loves mac rip-off.
snow fall.

The calla lilies are in bloom again. Such a strange flower; suitable to any occasion.

I remember making love on a Sunday
like throwing hearts in a fresh cut grass in May
woah
I remember making out on the airplane
Still afraid of flying, but with you I'd die today
woah
I remember the smell of your skin forever
Love us being stupid together

You're stuck in my mind
all the time (x3)

I remember Monday making our lives gray
Still don't know what it is that I said
woah
I remember thinking this would never end
Even when you're gone your eyes running through my head
woah

You're stuck in my mind
all the time (x4)

A friend is taking me traveling. we will be spending xmas in new orleans and new year's in florida :)
i'm so excited.

Dean/Casthulhu
entirely the fault of architeuthis
um, somewhere between 'pg' and 'not safe for work' because other people draw full frontal tentacle rape and i just draw established relationship!tentacle!fluff
mucho thanks to uselessplayback for hand-holding earlier



( thisss way )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! I hate this time of year. I always end up comparing it to years past. Last year, the year before, a few before that, and so on. But today, I think that I will spend it in bed. Apparently the apocalypse is going to happen on my small town in the form of a blizzard. So I may as well get comfortable. I hope though, that I do not become too burdened by snow. I think that I would like to get a burrito.

Odos Panos magazine is out, the Kavafis issue, it includes a CD with new music and songs with Kavafi poems. I'm reciting in two of them.

almost christmas.
lopsided carseat.
marley and me made me cry.
life is beautiful, really.

i got a nice brown paper journal a while ago and it's just been sitting there because, quite frankly, i have no idea where to start with it. i don't want it to be full of cut and paste pictures and biro sketches like it is at the moment. but, because i like to work in inks and watercolour which look very bad on brown paper, i'm lacking any inspiration and i've not the heart to see it go to waste. so, i was wondering does anybody know of any good techniques to use when journaling on brown paper? 

Got more journal goodness going:


( more pics )

I am so naive

and here's a video of me getting my tongue pierced >.<








also, i bought a camera today, so you can expect to see more photography.
i'm soooo excited about vacation and not going to sewanee next semester, but i gotta be moved out of my dorm by 2, boo.

You can be one of those happy people
You ARE one of those happy people.

Pulling my last all-nighter, mostly for fun but also because in true cara fashion i wasted the day, sorta. at least i'm having fun. poor m had to write a paper and do a take home biology test.


here are two pieces i did this semester in film. the dance film may be more groovin than you want to watch ;) the sound ends around 4.30. the music is by me; the words are not. "arsonists' prayer" i think i first read it on adam's myspace years ago.







this was my final piece, so i am sorry that it is something that i just slapped together in a few hours. but that's pretty much how i do everything :/ i like it, though. when i "presented" it, i hadn't thought about how to explain it and pretty much bumbled around with a loss for words. i don't know if anything i said about it made sense: dreams, memory, documentation, interpretation, layers, perception, contradiction. probably not...








comments welcome.

Really? Just spent hours in the art building trying to print. Didn't work. It is now 5AM.

I'm obligated to go to a party this weekend. I really wasn't interested in attending, then I got more interested knowing that it'd be my close friends having fun. But now? Mad people are going? What the hell? The reason I'm concerned is because the party takes place in...ONE ROOM.

This simply added to my agitation. I fumed a bit to a friend, and he decided that it'd be appropriate to joke that I'm a drama queen. He then decided to jokingly clarify that a drama queen is just one who wants all attention and to make the world revolve around herself.

Really? Fuck off. I don't fucking start drama, haven't all semester. I don't even give a fuck about my grades, let alone drama to bicker about. What the fuck makes men think they can crack jokes like that and get away with it? Seriously?

I wasn't aware that verbally fuming=drama! OH MAH B. Seriously, get the fuck out of my face. I rarely snap at people, but now, I am.

I'm seriously becoming really bad. I just want to shut people out of my life that irritate me. It's like my patience level has gone OUT the window.

Stayed home with a fever today, sorted photos and read. So behind in photos. Every day for October & November has a folder. Things will come, things will happen.

Magazine update on Friday, probably won't happen on Friday, but soon afterward. Possibly a comic of mine that only some people have read. New stuff from Coyote, Rockmell Comics, Kram, and Betty. Betty!

If you aren't up to speed on Coyote Rosebud's ongoing story, go here: http://syphmag.net/coyote.htm#set for parts 1 & 2 of The Voracious Mouth of Roadkill Rita. I'm dying for it, we're all dying for it.